About thirty-two years ago I was in a bad place emotionally and mentally. I was hooked on drugs, I was in a bad relationship, I was unhappy. My mom had been trying to help me, but I was in the grip of a lifestyle I could not get out of. I was literally in bondage to the very thing I hated.
My mom had given me a bible and asked me to read it. I was desperate, I read it. I did not understand it, but I read it. During this time she would come to my house and bring me into my bathroom to look at myself in the mirror. She wanted me to start to like myself. She wanted me to tell myself that I was loved by myself. At that time I could not even look at myself in the mirror. Telling myself I was worthy of love was out of the question. I did not even like myself, I certainly did not love myself.
That little beginning sparked a change in me that caused me to cry out to a god I new nothing about. In fact I did not really know there was a one true God. My beliefs were twisted and infused with a few different religions so that I had really created my own belief system. But, like I said, I was desperate.
One morning while at my then boyfriend’s mom’s house, I picked up the Triplicate newspaper. I was absentmindedly scanning through the pages reading the classified section. I saw an advertisement for training to become a real estate agent. The small thought came to my mind to give it a try.
If any of you knew me back then you would know that there should have been no possible way for me to pull that off. I would have to do schooling, I would have to pass tests, Someone would have to believe in me. I certainly did not believe in myself.
Fast forward to today, I did pass that real estate test. My mom along with my first broker did believe in me. But above all, that small start with the newspaper, the mirror and my moms bible allowed something to shift inside of me so that years later I could accept Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior.
I heard a message at church one time with the title of “Don’t despise the small things”. That is my prayer for all of you. Pay attention to the little things in your life. It could be the Lord leading you someplace you could never imagine going.
That will I speak 